It's not so good folks...
I've done pretty well on the exercising regime... I only missed one day and that's because I had a rally busy schedule and my local gym was closed because of a marathon or something... but what really gets me is that it's been... 1,2,3... 10 days in a row I've worked out and I'm GAINING weight!! I know the whole muscle weighs more than fat, and when you're sore your body is retaining lactic acid, and all that stuff.. but seriously? after almost two weeks, shouldn't I be losing weight now?
I'm not giving up, but my goodness, I am so discouraged, it's not even funny. I have had to desperately talk myself out of giving up so many times this last week and a half... I need to get over this hump though! I'm hardly eating these days, stocking up on salad and carrot sticks, etc, which, of course makes me so hungry and I feel so empty all the time... that it makes me uber-cranky! I almost cursed out my boss, not because she did anything wrong, but just because everything is piling up on me, and I don't know how else to relieve it... it's times like these, I wish I had a boyfriend or a husband that I could just sex the heck out of them... but that's obviously not one of my options right now... and the worst part, I'm going to Vegas tomorrow.. granted, I'm on a huge budget and can't afford to party and spend really, but still, the temptation is there, especially when I'm going with a 6 month pregnant woman.. you know she's going to want to eat all the time...
I need something... someone... anyone.. to help me... this struggle is more than out of my hands.. I need help.. I just don't know where to find it, or what exact kind of help it is that I need...
wish me luck.. I'm gonna need it!
Thursday, October 21, 2010
Monday, October 11, 2010
Diet and Exercise go hand-in-hand
Okay, we all know that the basics of every weight loss program is watch what you eat and exercise. You can't be successful and stay successful without implementing BOTH! I'm sorry, but I don't care what any diet program says, if they disagree with diet and exercise together, they are full of crap.
Now, let me explain a little further... I have experienced on the Lindora Weight Loss Program, significant weight loss without much exercise. Lindora recommends moderate exercise, which is basically walking 10,000 steps (or more) a day. And, it really does work. Of course, you need to get off your ass and actually walk 10,000+ steps AND follow the menu plan in order to lose weight.
However, having started a second and third series, I have noticed that I can't do exactly the same thing that I did when I lost the first 40 pounds. I have to change things up and do more. And it made sense when I asked my nurse consultant why I need to change my tactics.. she said that my body is different and therefore, I need to change and do different things so my body doesn't get accustomed and used to my usual diet routine. And she was right.
Being 40 pounds less, my body requires that I do more exercise than when I weighed 250 pounds. And I WANT to exercise more, unfortunately life gets in the freakin' way!
Well, I have decided to re-dedicate myself on this weight loss journey and I have decided to challenge myself with a new exercise regime...
Back when I was working at Jenny Craig and I lost the 40 pounds then, I remember I was an exercise-aholic! (Granted, I was only working 38 hours a week) but I used to go to the gym 10 times a week! Yes! some of those days I would go to the gym twice a day! Now, I know I don't have that kind of time anymore, AND, well, I'm not 24 years old anymore either... but my challenge to myself is this, starting today, Monday, October 11th, I challenge myself to exercise for a minimum of 30 minutes everday, for as many days as I can possibly go.. with a requirement of a minimum of one month! Whatever the physical activity may be, I need to do something everyday! The wedding I have to go to is in 28 days, my birthday is in 31 days... not to mention Halloween, and the holidays, and MY LIFE!! I always have heard that it takes 28 days to form a habit and to break a habit...(albeit good or bad)...
Let's see if it works. My 28 days starts NOW!
Now, let me explain a little further... I have experienced on the Lindora Weight Loss Program, significant weight loss without much exercise. Lindora recommends moderate exercise, which is basically walking 10,000 steps (or more) a day. And, it really does work. Of course, you need to get off your ass and actually walk 10,000+ steps AND follow the menu plan in order to lose weight.
However, having started a second and third series, I have noticed that I can't do exactly the same thing that I did when I lost the first 40 pounds. I have to change things up and do more. And it made sense when I asked my nurse consultant why I need to change my tactics.. she said that my body is different and therefore, I need to change and do different things so my body doesn't get accustomed and used to my usual diet routine. And she was right.
Being 40 pounds less, my body requires that I do more exercise than when I weighed 250 pounds. And I WANT to exercise more, unfortunately life gets in the freakin' way!
Well, I have decided to re-dedicate myself on this weight loss journey and I have decided to challenge myself with a new exercise regime...
Back when I was working at Jenny Craig and I lost the 40 pounds then, I remember I was an exercise-aholic! (Granted, I was only working 38 hours a week) but I used to go to the gym 10 times a week! Yes! some of those days I would go to the gym twice a day! Now, I know I don't have that kind of time anymore, AND, well, I'm not 24 years old anymore either... but my challenge to myself is this, starting today, Monday, October 11th, I challenge myself to exercise for a minimum of 30 minutes everday, for as many days as I can possibly go.. with a requirement of a minimum of one month! Whatever the physical activity may be, I need to do something everyday! The wedding I have to go to is in 28 days, my birthday is in 31 days... not to mention Halloween, and the holidays, and MY LIFE!! I always have heard that it takes 28 days to form a habit and to break a habit...(albeit good or bad)...
Let's see if it works. My 28 days starts NOW!
Thursday, October 7, 2010
Weight Loss and PMS.. *UGH*
As all us women know, dieting is a real bitch! AND, once you add PMS into the mix you have SUPER BITCH! *YIKES! Look out!*
Dieting and going through PMS and menstruation is a horrific experience! Honestly and truly! We all know the symptoms of PMS and menstruation... bloating, water retention, cramps, irritation, mood swings, bitchiness, headaches, skin blemishes. And then there is the actual bleeding and annoyance of running to the bathroom every two hours, wearing your "fat clothes" and having to use tampons or pads for five days straight! It's the biggest natural/physiological injustice.
The cravings are the hardest symptoms to fight, especially when you are doing so well on a diet and making good choices and feeling great about yourself. Then you hit the chocolate and sweet-tooth cravings wall! Good God, it makes me want to scream at times.
The second most difficult thing about the diet-PMS combo is actually getting my bloated, fat cramping ass to the gym! Who the hell wants to go to the gym and run on a treadmill for 30 minutes when you are afraid to move more than three inches else your workout pants will look like they committed suicide. Not me! I can't afford to do laundry that often.. way too many quarters!!
Lastly, and most importantly, the automatic weight gain with PMS. It is beyond not fair! Rarely, rarely, rarely have I ever gone through a menstrual cycle without weight gain. I know it's water retention and bloating. I know it will go away once my period is finished, but when I am on a roll and I'm doing really well on a diet and then my period arrives, the thought of just seeing that number on the scale is so disheartening! While working at Jenny Craig and being on the Jenny Craig diet, I realized that I gain 5 POUNDS on my period!! FIVE WHOLE POUNDS!! It's terrible. What makes it even harder to see that 5 pound heavier number is when I'm NOT doing very well. Because I'm already struggling to begin with, despite the knowledge that I know it will go away, seeing my weight go up on the scale is like a dagger to the heart and has many a times made me fall off the dieting wagon.
Well, ladies, it may not be in alignment with other people, or dieting professionals, but my opinion is this: DO NOT GET ON THE SCALE! Don't exercise those two days of heavy bleeding! Don't go shopping AT ALL while menstruating or PMS-ing! SERIOUSLY! It's too tempting to buy the bad stuff during this monthly monstrosity! And DO keep writing in your journal! DO take as many drugs as possible to help with the bitchiness, cravings, bloating, etc... and DO encourage yourself and motivate yourself and remind yourself HOW WELL YOU ARE DOING! It's at this crucial time of the month that motivational cards, positive thinking and reinforcements are the MOST helpful.
And always, always remember... it's Mother Natures fault! The mean bitch!!
Dieting and going through PMS and menstruation is a horrific experience! Honestly and truly! We all know the symptoms of PMS and menstruation... bloating, water retention, cramps, irritation, mood swings, bitchiness, headaches, skin blemishes. And then there is the actual bleeding and annoyance of running to the bathroom every two hours, wearing your "fat clothes" and having to use tampons or pads for five days straight! It's the biggest natural/physiological injustice.
The cravings are the hardest symptoms to fight, especially when you are doing so well on a diet and making good choices and feeling great about yourself. Then you hit the chocolate and sweet-tooth cravings wall! Good God, it makes me want to scream at times.
The second most difficult thing about the diet-PMS combo is actually getting my bloated, fat cramping ass to the gym! Who the hell wants to go to the gym and run on a treadmill for 30 minutes when you are afraid to move more than three inches else your workout pants will look like they committed suicide. Not me! I can't afford to do laundry that often.. way too many quarters!!
Lastly, and most importantly, the automatic weight gain with PMS. It is beyond not fair! Rarely, rarely, rarely have I ever gone through a menstrual cycle without weight gain. I know it's water retention and bloating. I know it will go away once my period is finished, but when I am on a roll and I'm doing really well on a diet and then my period arrives, the thought of just seeing that number on the scale is so disheartening! While working at Jenny Craig and being on the Jenny Craig diet, I realized that I gain 5 POUNDS on my period!! FIVE WHOLE POUNDS!! It's terrible. What makes it even harder to see that 5 pound heavier number is when I'm NOT doing very well. Because I'm already struggling to begin with, despite the knowledge that I know it will go away, seeing my weight go up on the scale is like a dagger to the heart and has many a times made me fall off the dieting wagon.
Well, ladies, it may not be in alignment with other people, or dieting professionals, but my opinion is this: DO NOT GET ON THE SCALE! Don't exercise those two days of heavy bleeding! Don't go shopping AT ALL while menstruating or PMS-ing! SERIOUSLY! It's too tempting to buy the bad stuff during this monthly monstrosity! And DO keep writing in your journal! DO take as many drugs as possible to help with the bitchiness, cravings, bloating, etc... and DO encourage yourself and motivate yourself and remind yourself HOW WELL YOU ARE DOING! It's at this crucial time of the month that motivational cards, positive thinking and reinforcements are the MOST helpful.
And always, always remember... it's Mother Natures fault! The mean bitch!!
Monday, October 4, 2010
Weight Loss and Being Sick...
Well, I apologize to those of you out in cyber world who actually read my blog, I haven't posted in over a week. And it's pretty obvious that I don't post as often when I'm not doing so great.
Yes, this last week and a half has not been any exception. This last week I was sick. Now, I have realized that there are two kinds of sickness.. the one that makes you vomit anything and everything that is in your stomach and allows you to lose five pounds in two days, and then there is the sickness that you say "Screw it! I don't feel good, I need to eat!" and you end up gaining about five pounds of chicken soup and orange juice and jello weight.
Being sick is not fun folks.. we all know that. And being sick and still consciously trying to lose weight, even worse!! I unfortunately, and yet fortunately, had the vomit kind of sickness. Now granted, the timing was kind of perfect because I had a joint bachelor-bachelorette party to go to a few days later, so barfing five pounds off my body was horrific but helped fit into my semi-new "I need to impress the cute groomsmen" dress.
It was horrible. I literally ate nothing that first day. I drank diet 7-up and Zero Calorie vitamin water and regular water. That's it! The thought of even considering eating made me want to puke! It was so terrible.. I was miserable and everyone at worked made it quite clear that I looked terrible. The second day, I pretty much did the same thing except in the evening I ate a bowl of soup, which did help get rid of the lethargic-zombie feeling I was going through due to the lack of calorie consumption. Later that night, I was tossing and turning, hot and cold, sweaty, freezing, but by the morning I think I broke my fever and had some pinkish color back into my cheeks. I still didn't want to over do it, so I just added another can of soup for lunch.
By Friday, I was down 5.2 pounds in four days. I finally felt better, but goodness, what an ordeal to lose 5 pounds! I honestly think it was my body telling me to get it into freakin' gear because it no longer wants to even smell junk food let alone digest it!
Hint taken. Clue gotten! Well, by the bachelor-bachelorette party, I was down a whole "whopping" 8 pounds from the beginning of this journey... No, not my best work, but it's better than being 8 pounds heavier!
I don't know how well of an impression I made on cute groomsmen, but I figure I have another month before the wedding! One month! Goodness time flies.. and my fat ass is wasting it! Off to the gym! I HAVE TO GET DOWN to 198 pounds! I was 198 pounds last year, I will not weigh MORE than what I weighed last year!! That's not progress!
I'm feeling a bit of a renewed spirit at this weight loss stuff... I hope this renewed spirit gets stronger and lasts longer.. it's really tough doing this on my own!
Yes, this last week and a half has not been any exception. This last week I was sick. Now, I have realized that there are two kinds of sickness.. the one that makes you vomit anything and everything that is in your stomach and allows you to lose five pounds in two days, and then there is the sickness that you say "Screw it! I don't feel good, I need to eat!" and you end up gaining about five pounds of chicken soup and orange juice and jello weight.
Being sick is not fun folks.. we all know that. And being sick and still consciously trying to lose weight, even worse!! I unfortunately, and yet fortunately, had the vomit kind of sickness. Now granted, the timing was kind of perfect because I had a joint bachelor-bachelorette party to go to a few days later, so barfing five pounds off my body was horrific but helped fit into my semi-new "I need to impress the cute groomsmen" dress.
It was horrible. I literally ate nothing that first day. I drank diet 7-up and Zero Calorie vitamin water and regular water. That's it! The thought of even considering eating made me want to puke! It was so terrible.. I was miserable and everyone at worked made it quite clear that I looked terrible. The second day, I pretty much did the same thing except in the evening I ate a bowl of soup, which did help get rid of the lethargic-zombie feeling I was going through due to the lack of calorie consumption. Later that night, I was tossing and turning, hot and cold, sweaty, freezing, but by the morning I think I broke my fever and had some pinkish color back into my cheeks. I still didn't want to over do it, so I just added another can of soup for lunch.
By Friday, I was down 5.2 pounds in four days. I finally felt better, but goodness, what an ordeal to lose 5 pounds! I honestly think it was my body telling me to get it into freakin' gear because it no longer wants to even smell junk food let alone digest it!
Hint taken. Clue gotten! Well, by the bachelor-bachelorette party, I was down a whole "whopping" 8 pounds from the beginning of this journey... No, not my best work, but it's better than being 8 pounds heavier!
I don't know how well of an impression I made on cute groomsmen, but I figure I have another month before the wedding! One month! Goodness time flies.. and my fat ass is wasting it! Off to the gym! I HAVE TO GET DOWN to 198 pounds! I was 198 pounds last year, I will not weigh MORE than what I weighed last year!! That's not progress!
I'm feeling a bit of a renewed spirit at this weight loss stuff... I hope this renewed spirit gets stronger and lasts longer.. it's really tough doing this on my own!
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