Revival!

Okay, so I will apologize to everyone (anyone) who follows "me blog".... it has been a long time since I have posted anything and, yes, mostly because I've been slacking on everything.. especially since the Vegas trip... but, I just had my 31st birthday weekend celebration, and literally have turned into the poster child for laziness and gluttony! On the fifth day (Sunday) of my celebration, my father made me Dutch pancakes and my sister made an ENORMOUS feast of a dinner, making pot roast, brussel sprouts (yeah, I know, but I tried them and they were actually pretty good, covered in hollandaise sauce), croissants, ceasar salad, a ridiculous amount of potatoes and carrots with the pot roast, and macaroni and cheese (for the kids, but I ended up eating some of that too!) And for desert, my family and I plowed through not one, but TWO coconut custard pies!! I could literally feel my body expanding to fit all the food... whew! it took a lot of work eating all of that, but it was so good!

However, as a result, I'm feeling pretty Ginormous right now! and most of the yucky feeling is in my belly/gut/midsection.. an area of my body I have never usually have had an issue with.. and, well, now I know why! ...

I decided to get back on track and I'm going back to the gym tonight with my best bud Nikki... aka workout Nazi extraordinare!! So, while packing my gym bag and getting ready for work this morning I decided to jump on the scale and see exactly how much damage I have done this last week (but really the last month in a half)...

It's bad my friends.. REAL BAD! I knew I gained some weight, but I just didn't pay attention to how much and how quickly I was packing it on.. grand big butt total: 232.9 pounds! Yeah.. you got it.. in approximately two months or so, I've gained 15 pounds.. no wonder my mid-section has the diameter of a 9-month pregnant elephant!

Seeing that number was horrifying! And it's all right there looking at me, waiving and jiggling in the mirror! I mean, shit! I weigh more than most men!! The only men heavier than me are either 6'8" and taller and tackle football players for a living!

YIKES!!! So, that definitely pushed and motivated me to start back up at the gym... and let me tell you.. it won't be easy...I am so out of shape!!

There is a PLUS side to this though, well sort of...

On the third day of my birthday celebration, I went to my good 'ol faithful pub that I have oh-so missed since moving to the LBC, and I met my friend and former co-worker D for some drinks and fun... and, boy did we have some fun! Yes, there was alcohol, yes there was a free dessert for my birthday, and yes my gargantuine boobs were on display in an insanely tight dress that, well, that used to fit me a heck-of-a-lot better four years ago! Anyway, I'm talking to some old pub buddies and meeting a few new ones, when this one guy I noticed was talking my friend's ear off all night... even after the pub closed, he suggested and walked us girls downtown to party some more.. I thought it was hilarious because he didn't have a chance in Hades with D, because she's engaged to her BF of 8 years, but man he was into her... or so I thought!

The dude was nice and sweet and a perfect gentleman, paid for everything that wasn't already on the house, and even offered to pay for anything at the Denny's "after party"... he even offered to drive and let us crash at his house for a few hours until we were driving capable... anyway.. to make a long story longer.. I find out the next day that D and pub dude exchanged numbers and he was asking her for MY NUMBER!! I totally didn't see that coming!! He has been texting me non-stop ever since... telling me how beautiful and funny I am and what a great time he had.. he wanted to be friends on facebook, etc...

Well, the moral of the story is, my self-esteem and ego has been raised up again! Even in my heavy, jiggley state, I have been reminded that I am still an amazing and attractive and fun woman.. and weight doesn't hinder me from getting attention and feeling special and beautiful and sexy!! Yeah!!! It's good knowing, especially for a woman, that whether you gain or lose, your weight doesn't define who you are!!

So, now I am reviving my dedication and determination to lose weight.. and I have realized that I'm not going back to the gym and dieting to look better.. but to feel better.. because I already look FABULOUS!!