Oh my goodness, this week has been so hectic for me. I don't know why it is so different than any other crazy week at work. I have already lapsed on the program. I haven't been into the clinic once this week (NOT GOOD!). Of course, I have actually taken only one lunch break in the last four days, so that kind of explains why.
I don't know what it is exactly about my job that I get so stressed out about. I work for a great company, I have a lot of nice and friendly co-workers, upper management is awesome and friendly, I don't get my head cut off if I make a mistake, and I get to come in later than others and get to stay later because they are nice and understanding enough to realize that I am not a morning person and they will get more creativity and productivity out of me with a flex hour work schedule. Maybe it's just that. I don't want to disappoint and miss a deadline or say "No, I can't do it" when they allow me so much comfortability at work. Granted, the last minute, "fire drill" projects are a lot more frequent than just occasional, but somehow, someway, I make sure I get it done in time.
Well, this week has been one of those crazy, busy weeks. I have a new boss now, and I'm getting accustomed to her and working and talking and interacting with her, and I like her.. I think we will get along very nicely.. and of course, I want to impress my new boss, so I not only make myself stress about hitting deadlines, but actually trying to be earlier than the deadlines. And, despite my four glittery, neon white hairs that I found this morning on the top of my head, I'm impressing away with out a sweat. But there is always a tit for a tat...
I haven't gone to the gym once this week, I haven't gone into the clinic this week, I haven't filled out my daily food journal once this week, and I have been missing my snacks and meals, which means I am starving by the end of the day and eventually succumbing to fast food... (Again, NOT GOOD!) And, I have given in to my new boss' "emergency snack drawer." As a result, I have gained three pounds since last Friday, which of course pisses me off to no end, and I only have myself to blame, because I know exactly what I DID NOT DO that made me gain these three pounds.
And this weekend will not be an easy one either... A lunch meeting tomorrow, Rock concert at the Viper Room on Friday (which means alcohol consumption), soccer with the nieces and nephews early Saturday (which means very little to no sleep), Dad wants me to spend the night and go to church with them (which means the insane temptation of a bunch of kiddy snacks like chips and spaghetti-o's and macaroni and cheese and fruit snacks).. and if I even make it out alive our of all that, a friend is having a birthday get together at Pink's Taco in Santa Monica... the dilemna (if it isn't so obvious) is that I have no idea where to find the time to go to the gym, I will most likely get very, very little sleep (which also contributes to weight gain), and just the stress of being busy and having to think and plan ahead... OH! AND, I desperately need to catch up with my two online classes.. I'm already a week behind! (NOT GOOD, NOT GOOD, NOT GOOD!)
Please pardon my french when I say "F*** ME!" ..
So, what do I do? I can't go into this chaotic weekend without a plan, or at least a set of guidelines to try and follow... I need to make healthy food choices, so for tomorrow's lunch meeting, a salad with grilled chicken, lite dressing on the side, water, water, and more water... the rock concert, *yikes* I don't know how I am going to be able to say no to alcohol.. "LIMIT DRINK CONSUMPTION TO A LIMIT OF 2!"... okay, okay.. so far, I think I can do this.. saturday drink lots of water and try to guilt trip myself into not eating any of the kids food, because no one wants to take food away from kids, especially when I know my sister doesn't have much money to buy groceries... I can do that.. guilt works on me... the gym though.. how do I get exercise in??? I still need to figure that one out... crap! Sunday, hmmm... Pink Taco.. that doesn't sound like healthy food.. I'll check the website and see what they have.. perhaps I can get another salad or something.. or maybe try to eat before hand and only have ONE, no more than TWO drinks to celebrate my friend's birthday.. then go home, and maybe go to the gym Sunday night!!
Yeah.. I think this can work..
One of the main things I have experienced and have been told over and over again, is that when you have a plan or at least a set of guidelines going into a difficult eating situation... it's not as stressful and overwhelming. And I know that if I try to deal with eating situations at that exact moment, I collapse and give in without really trying.. I need psychological preparation! Hmmm, I think I will re-read my motivation cards before I go to bed each night.. hopefully I will get some kind of osmosis through out the night and wake up confident and resolute!!
I WILL LOSE WEIGHT BY MONDAY!! I WILL GO TO THE CLINIC ON MONDAY!! I WILL GO TO THE GYM TWICE BETWEEN NOW AND MONDAY! I WILL NOT DRINK TOO MUCH ALCOHOL! I WILL GET EVERYTHING DONE! I WILL! I WILL! I WILL!
Wish me luck...
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